never again will i kiss you never again will i want to never again will i love you

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 00:39:22 GMT

I know it has been like weeks since i last posted and even then its nothing to write home about or even any longer than three sentences. and i really hate writing about something that should have been over years ago but i just got a very rude awakening and i have to put this somewhere. so please, bare with me.

in high school i was head over heels for my best friend. ( don't worry, his name is michael. ) anyway, a couple of times i tried to date him, get with him, whatever, but he always was like "no i don't want to ruin our friendship" or "i just dont feel that way about you." yeah, so anyway, he had loads of girlfriends and they all cheated on him or messed with him bad or something but good ol amanda was always there.

well, i moved out of middleburg 7 months ago. the last time i saw him, he acted like he was trying to get with me or whatever and i told myself, no this can't happen, i'm finally over him enough to let him be. I have his myspace, and he said we'd write but he never responded to any of my messages so after a while i just stopped sending. He never got on and he pretty much just came a little blip in my friends list ya know. I had nearly forgotten all about him.

a moment ago, i thought i'd just sign onto myspace just to give it a check and there was a bulletin. apparently, he got his most recent girlfriend knocked up. funny thing is, this girl is a slut. i knew her in high school and she was with every boy or girl that would have her. she's cruel and immature. and i'm not saying this because she's with him or whatever. i didn't like her even before they knew each other.

sick thing is, all of the girls he went out with were young, but really tall and really skinny. never any short, chubby girls like me. this girl is just like me except less cool and a definite slut. obviously. she got knocked up and she's 17 by a 21 year old.

see i think what im saying is completely ridiculous because i dont give a rats ass about him anymore because looking back on everything, he treated me like real shit. i just hate that he had to go and fuck up his life like this.

having a child shouldn't be an accident. that poor kid is gonna be cracked out when it's born.

anyway, to be civil, i sent a reply to his bulletin. basically i said "congrats. and btw i am still alive." yeah so good fucking luck mike. hope the kid doesn't turn out to be as much as a dumbass as the two of you. :)

/rant

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Tue, 26 Dec 2006 05:54:32 GMT

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STILL WANT TO ADD ME? I WELCOME IT!!

such a beautiful lie to believe in

never again will i kiss you never again will i want to never again will i love you

FRIENDS ONLY;;means it's locked fuckmooks!!